Makes you think

A few weeks ago I received a phone call.  It was totally out of the blue and something that I never in a million years would have expected.  It was from an old best friend of mine, now when I say best friend, I mean spending any minute that we could together kind of best friend.  We knew everything about each other.  Obviously as we got older we grew apart.  We didn't always make good choices together and we didn't always make good choices apart, but we were good people none the less.  We both had the same spiritual foundation, she might have even had an advantage.  Family wise I definitely had the advantage (how couldn't I with my family, right??).  So as we grew up, we made our decisions, together or apart whether they were good or bad, but we were still friends.  We weren't best friends anymore but we were in touch every now and then.  As time passed a little more, we were in very different places, but no matter what I had a soft spot for this person.  They could call me after not having talked to them for months and nothing would be different, our relationship would go back to being as it was before (we were just older and {wiser??}).  I would drop anything to be at the aid of this person.  Well, this last conversation was different, it wasn't there.  The friendship that we had built and would always come right back was gone.  Talking was awkward, silences with nothing to say even though we haven't talked in many years.  This time I wasn't so quick to jump to this person's rescue, even though I offered whatever "help" I could, I was more cautious.  The trust wasn't there.  Had I been burned so many times before that I had learned my lesson??  We floundered back and forth for a bit and then I said I had to go.  Never before would I have ended the conversation in case something needed to be said for me to help with.  That was it, we have nothing in common anymore.  We are so different and took such different paths that there is no basis for a friendship.  This friend that I have doesn't know who she is or what she needs.  I just feel so sad for her because she isn't happy.  It is such a testimony to me to see how the gospel can influence a person's life.  We were at the same place 10 years ago.  Now we couldn't be farther from it.  I am so thankful for the knowledge that I have of the gospel.   If I didn't have this knowledge maybe I would be in the same place.  I am thankful to know who I am and what I am worth.  I'm extremely thankful for my family who loves me and would do anything for me, and my husband who is a righteous priesthood holder and example to everyone around him, younger and older.  I am thankful for the choices that I have made to put me where I am today in my life.  I am most grateful for the opportunity that I have each week to work in the Temple.  It is such a blessing to my little family and more selfishly to me.  I have learned to much and there's much more to be learned.  I know that Heavenly Father knows what we need and if we just listen, we'll know also.